Written on Saturday, August 29, 2009 at 10:21 PM
Letting go | Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
I am adapting well to the life here now, but adapting poses another problem, my life and identity in Singapore. Sometimes I question myself my place in Singapore, my place in Hwa Chong, my place in 09S7E and my place in my family.......sometimes I wonder if I really belong in the class anymore, whether people still remember me and whether I have became a burden to them, having them answering my calls and my requests to skype......maybe I have become too muchI guess it is time to let go, time to release my futile grasp on everything here, my desperate attempt to hold on to the various relationships in Singapore, my numerous calls to strike up a conversation every time I feel lonely or troubled....
people say 'absence makes the heart fonder' but sometimes I wonder if it is really true, sometimes I feel it is bothering me. staying up late waiting for you, waking up early just so I can say 'hi' to another, is it really worth it? Before I left, 09S7E is part of me, but as I live my life here, this place in my heart is slowly being overshadowed and dominated. Its still inside me no doubt, but what impact and influence it would have on me is still a big question mark
I dont blame you, I blame myself for being so foolish to hold on to something that has long gone
It is hard to, but I have to try
275days - I guess it wont be necessary now
Written on Monday, August 24, 2009 at 9:25 AM
A week have passed | Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
A week have passed since the start of school and things are still not going too well. Academically speaking, the classes here is really easy, most of the things that are being taught have already been covered in Singapore. English was easy, I scored full marks for the first sight passage (their version of comprehension), haha, it was really easy, seriously, you should have seen it XDI bought quite a lot of things since I have been there and the latest addition to my stuff is a brand new printer at only $40, usual price was 70 but the person at the cashier keyed the price wrongly, haha. Spent the excess taking a cab home instead.
Tim Hortons is not bad, their ice capp supreme is only $3 and it is super big and taste just like the starbucks here in Singapore, and their donuts and super cheap, only $6 for 12. hahaha Someone tim hortons is literally everywhere, I am buying the donuts everyday XD, time to get fat haha
on a darker note, my stupid roomate is NOT moving out, what a pity, have to live with that prick who smokes drinks and have no idea what studying is about -.- What to do, thats life, seriously, I hope someday he would get expelled for drinking or something *evil laughs* I would pounce upon every opportunity to get him expelled, you watch it party boy :(
289days - homecoming
Written on Thursday, August 13, 2009 at 9:05 AM
| Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
This is the first time I had read the cards you have prepared since I came to Canada, guess I was finally emotionally ready to face the reality. No tears, but my heart still bleeds every time I see the pictures and heartfelt messages that was penned all over the cards. I guess a part of my heart (just that small part down in the middle) would forever remain in Singapore and be with you all. :)Orientation was quite okay, the second day has just passed and most of time I have hanging out with the only other Singaporean new in the school. He is really nice. XD Finally some semblance of niceness from Singapore HAHA.... Starting to get used to lifestyle here. sometimes one cant always be in his/her comfort zone, there is always a time I have to step out and get to know other people.
So far, I am quite pleased to say I have made a few acquaintances with people from Jamaica, Indonesia, China and Nigeria, Malaysia and of course SG!
Guess life in Canada would not be so bad after all.
PS I really need a car, hint hint, my birthday is on 11th March XD
Written on Monday, August 10, 2009 at 6:50 PM
Trying to forget the past | Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
I dont know what is wrong with me, after so long in Canada, 3 days to be exact, but I guess I have still not adapted to the environment yet. The public transport here is like not existent and everyone drives argh, this is seriously crap, we have to catch the bus to town at every half an hour intervals, this is seriously unbearable. I am going to die here, goodbye friends....Some people might think this is just the adapting period, but I guess this period is going to take longer that expected....
I am starting to regret the decision I have made, people told me not to and look forward, but I guess there is really nothing to look forward to in this case, cause the next 10 months feel so bleak and everything, I really just want to get everything over and done with and go back to Singapore, back to the company of friends that I always had.
I dont just miss Singapore, I am starting to regret even leaving all the wonderful things behind and coming to such a foriegn country.....
Written on Sunday, August 09, 2009 at 10:14 AM
Settling down | Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
Like what leonard says 'its the beginning', it is in fact the beginning of the 10 months to some extent I have to agree. No point weeping over something that you have no control over and no point rejecting everything here, because everything is already set in stone. There is no taking of the plane back and pretend it never happened, because it did.This sounds very lame, but every time I think about Singapore, I tell myself that there are only 303days before I get to meet my family and friends and teachers over there
303days, it might seem long, but it would be over in a flash and I know it
Awaiting the homecoming
PS: here are some pictures of the dorm, its quite nice actually
Written on Thursday, August 06, 2009 at 12:39 PM
SG Love | Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
This is probably my last post coming from an ip in a country that I have called home for the last 14 years. Its really hard to imagine, but 14 years have came and gone just like. And now, with my deeds done, I am now leaving for a foreign country, just like 14 years ago when I came from China to the Lion City. The only difference being I am going alone...These 14 years, what have became of me, I have grown, I have learn, I have enjoyed, I have made new friends, I have tried new things, there are just so many things that have occurred over the past period that It is simply impossible to list everything down. While I might say that there is nothing to leave behind and nothing I would miss about Singapore, in actual fact, it is everything, when pieced together to become a picture and thats exactly what would be missed about here.
Canada might have cheaper cars, but Singapore have cheaper cab fares.
Canadians might drive, but Singapore have a much more convenient public transport system.
Canada might be big and spacious with green pasture, Singapore is a cosy city that promotes interaction between people.
Canada might spell new opportunities for me, but will never make feel as homely as Singapore
As much I am excited about the fun and joy my upcoming journey might bring me, I find it hard and sometimes even bizarre that I am seemingly putting 14 years worth of my life to rest just like that....
Maybe all the pain and regret would be felt later....
Written on Monday, August 03, 2009 at 7:21 PM
Last Day in School | Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
Everything seems to be in fast motion, I still remember the first day I entered the gates of hwa chong. Everything then was so foreign to me, the sprawling campus of the school and all the new subjects that we have to take. All the friends I have made, all the childish acts we have committed, all the fun we had and all the anguish we have accumulated have all came to a halt on 31 July 2009.This is the day where everything comes back to me in a flash, from then till now. How I'd wished to return to those days again, where we were so carefree and innocent, free of the troubles and stress adolescences like us face today. How I'd wish to go back to go back to the start of the year and experience the building of friendships in 09S7E, the fun and joy we shared in various activities, the bond we forged through days of mugging together and the friendships that we have build on solid ground.
And now, nothing cept the friendships and memories remained, and who knows what would time do to such delicate relationships, would such ties stand the erosion through time. I guess this would be the greatest test of the friendship that all of us share.
Class Flag/Performance
Class Outing/Sleepover
Class Chalet
Farewell Party
Farewell Party II/ Sleepover
and all the other memories of each other that we shall share :)
Thursday, when we shall congregate for one last hooray