Written on Saturday, August 29, 2009 at 10:21 PM

Letting go | Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】

I am adapting well to the life here now, but adapting poses another problem, my life and identity in Singapore. Sometimes I question myself my place in Singapore, my place in Hwa Chong, my place in 09S7E and my place in my family.......sometimes I wonder if I really belong in the class anymore, whether people still remember me and whether I have became a burden to them, having them answering my calls and my requests to skype......maybe I have become too much

I guess it is time to let go, time to release my futile grasp on everything here, my desperate attempt to hold on to the various relationships in Singapore, my numerous calls to strike up a conversation every time I feel lonely or troubled....

people say 'absence makes the heart fonder' but sometimes I wonder if it is really true, sometimes I feel it is bothering me. staying up late waiting for you, waking up early just so I can say 'hi' to another, is it really worth it? Before I left, 09S7E is part of me, but as I live my life here, this place in my heart is slowly being overshadowed and dominated. Its still inside me no doubt, but what impact and influence it would have on me is still a big question mark

I dont blame you, I blame myself for being so foolish to hold on to something that has long gone

It is hard to, but I have to try

275days - I guess it wont be necessary now