Written on Wednesday, August 25, 2010 at 1:43 PM
its that time of the year again | Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
It is not that i do not want to post anything, it is sometimes there isn't an appropriate time to post. All these while, all these fun I had, all these friendships I have made, all these times we shared together, all these are going to come to an end soon enough. Very soon it will be a new beginning, a new start, a new way of life. Love it or hate it, that is going to be it for the next four years at least.I must say looking back at my life, I have enjoyed every moment of it, all the fifteen years of being in this small country. Frankly speaking, i will never know when i will be back, or if i will be back at all, but i can definitely call it my home, and it will be for a long time to come. i consider myself an Singaporean, although i never hold any valid demonstrating documents. It is the emotional attachment that counts.
For the past week, I kept thinking about the challenges i will be facing, the new people I will meet and feeling all anxious about it, but then again what for, my friends ask me to just take everything in my stride and i guess it should turn out fine. Am I getting overly paranoid? Is it going to be that stressful?
Written on Tuesday, June 15, 2010 at 10:03 PM
Its been another | Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
Its been another month since I last posted, doesn't time fly when you are not noticing and Im now posting from a completely different part of the world. I must say it wasn't an easy journey, this past ten months and Im really glad to be able to get over it in one piece. I must say the graduation didn't seem like one at all, I'm not talking about the formalities and all, but rather, it didn't feel like one for me. I isn't the end of a ten month stint for me, it is the start of many others to come in the near future and that is something I am really looking forward too.Back in the city of eternal rain and sunshine, I must admit I kinda of missed aspects of the little island. Okay, maybe not the hawker centre food or the overcrowding in the MRTs, but otherwise, everything here is a welcome change from the mundane-ness of Canada. It seems I am back in the world of colour televisions, where everything is more exciting, everything is more enjoyable. There is a greater spread of entertainment ideas and venues that will never have been dreamed of in Canada.
Now, after almost three weeks in the sunny island, I have learned to embrace my Singaporean-ness. After all, I have almost three months stuck here XD
Written on Thursday, May 13, 2010 at 9:17 AM
I'M BACK!!! | Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
Okay, sorry guys for the the long gap between my last post and now. NO, I have not died in the cold wilderness of Canada. Frankly, I am better than ever! I am enjoying myself too much here with all the activities and friends. Now, when it is less that 2 weeks before school here and my high school life officially ends for me, I am starting to hope that would slow to a halt.I guess the feeling is the same, when I was first leaving Singapore for here, I have exactly the same emotions as I have now. All the friends, despite having only 8 months and sometimes even less than that, seems to be there for a long time and having to leave all of them just like that seems to be a little harsh. No doubt, I am looking forward to meeting all of you in Singapore. BUT the excitement seem to be be buried under all the sorrow and despair I am experiencing right now.
Despite coming from Singapore and them from Northern China, there is very little cultural gap and even if there is any, it will be dismissed with a joke almost immediately. Alright, maybe I sometimes cannot communicate with the friends here, sometimes we do argue over trivial things, sometimes I can't understand their behavior and actions. HOWEVER, there is just this bond, that we are all alone in the foreign environment and that we are like a family. Mugging together, having meals together, going singing, pool, movies together. My life revolves around these special group of people, and Im pretty sure the feeling is mutual for them as well.
You may not understand, but being alone in someplace so far away will no doubt change your attitude.
I am going to visit them, I am and I will. Changchun, China, here I come! And if you are reading this, 来新加坡玩啊啊!!!
On a brighter note, I am accepted into McMaster Health Sciences, which according to our school's University Counsellors, the most competitive program to get in from high school, accepting only 160 students from the 2500 applications it receives!
12 Days
Written on Sunday, January 24, 2010 at 11:38 PM
its a long gap | Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
I must say, time passes really quickly, it has been half a month since I came back to Canada, school is picking up pace, homework is piling in, CCAs starting soon (Prefects ftw!!!) To a large extent, I think this is a good thing, time passes quickly, so pretty soon I can be out of this and into the bigger world of university studies. Free from all the constraints of curfews, lights out, bla bla bla BUT at the same time, I don't want to leave a place where I can cushioned, protected from the dangers of the world outside.I might sound like a show off, but it is good when u are at the top of everything, you feel a sense of achievement, a sense of you have reached the peak, you have achieved the highest possible. Such a feeling has not been possible in Singapore, but now I can. I can feel proud that I have done something right, something that us worthy of note. I'm no longer at the bottom of the food chain, subjected to discrimination and teasing, This had been a reversal of roles, and I dont want it just like that
Im Confused
Written on Sunday, January 10, 2010 at 6:48 AM
Backk | Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
Finally arrived in the little room of mine and three others, the wooden integrated study cable cum storage, the double decker bed, the wooden cupboard where I keep all kinds of my stuff. It all seem vaguely familiar, vaguely mine. It is like a deja vu, alone in another environment, no one else to look to, no one else to help you do this do that, the list goes on...Although this is something I have experienced before in the last 4 months, I realized the start of the journey is always the hardest, getting accustomed to everything all over again, overcoming the boredom that loomed as the school holidays draw to a close. But I guess after the initial incubation period, everything would be back to normal, the homework, projects and school would all come crashing down like a big boulder pinning me to this wooden desk, working non-stop.
A new bunch of students from Singapore have arrived for this semester, but somehow I feel that socializing with most of them is a hard thing. They seem to lead a different lifestyle, barely a few days in Canada and they have started to go to the movies, shop around. That is something me and the other Singaporean haven't done for a whole semester. I wonder how that would affect their grades hmmmmm.....
I came here to achieve something and I would not let such small bumps along the journey to affect me
Stay strong
Written on Friday, January 01, 2010 at 11:33 PM
Its a new year. Already? | Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
A new year, new resolutions, new aspirations, new goals, a brand new beginning . I always liked the start of a new year, because you can leave everything in the last year behind you and move on, embark on a fresh new journey that is free of the burdens and hauntings of the previous year. In a way, every new year is another new chance at life, striking it our, carving success for ourselves.2009 certainly is a turbulent year for me, entering JC, meeting new people, leaving people, starting a new life abroad, returning home. So many events and emotional roller coasters in such a short period of time. Finally, after so many struggles and contemplation, it has finally came to an end, I have rode through this mess and emerged unscathed, and even victorious to some extent.
Looking forward to 2010, another new challenge awaits me, a new step in my education, a new chapter in my life
University
Written on Monday, December 28, 2009 at 11:54 PM
| Written by 【 Uniquely XC™ 】
Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choice by coming back to Singapore. You know, before taking the flight back, I was really excited and stuff, excited that finally I can see my parents, excited that I can finally see my friends, excited that I can revisit places that I missed. However, such an empty excitement has imploded ever since I set foot on Singaporean. I do not know if it is the change in me, or is it the change in others and their expectations of me, but I feel that everyone is distant, not just friends but also family.More disagreements with family members, more squabbles with friends over minor stuff, more frustration over not being able to schedule everything I want to do
This trip certainly has not turned out so well, that is not to say that everything turned out badly though, there are certainly some high points such as the class's Christmas party and all the movie outings etc, but why do I get the feeling that those are just facades, people are hiding feelings, obscuring their thoughts..
I dont know, maybe it is just me
I detest people who are unable to keep secrets, you know who you are